dear old dad

one of the most fortunate things
to have happened to me
was to have a
cruel and sadistic
father.

after him
the worst things that the Fates
have thrown upon me
have hardly seemed as
terrible–
things that would cause other
men
anger, despair, disgust,
madness, thoughts of suicide
and
so forth
have only had a minor effect
upon me
due to my
upbringing:
after my father
almost anything else looked
good.

I should really be
thankful to that
old fuck
so long dead
now
he readied me
for all the numerous
hells
by getting to me there
early
on time
through the inescapable
years.

Author
Charles Bukowski
Written
1986
Source
Original manuscript